Life is, at times, tough...

And all we need to do is to prove that we are tougher than it...

He saw her red eyes filled with tears of anger. 
"Tell me why this rage?" He asked holding her in his arms. "Why do you fence for yourself so much?

She sighed and muttered, "Because all I really want is nothing but to be proved wrong."

A couple of hours more
and those dreams will,
once again, burn bright
only to turn into ashes
the moment you look the other way...
There has to be a restlessness and a certain feeling that says you're going to fall.. AGAIN
Yet you hope, against all odds...
you jump, and you pray
and believe when you say
what if this time you don't fall
what if this time you fly 

It was never easy..
And you have no idea how it should be..
Your life's a mess, it's crazy
But weird is fun..
Strange is beautiful..
It's dumb, stupid, cute
It's normal, rare yet wonderful

You're one damaged soul
and deep down you know
shattered into pieces
and fixed with a word
veiled with a smile
and cured by love...

Your insides scream,
it's a tempest within,
but nobody sees,
an empty beach,
and the calm sea,
is what you show.
and you cry for help,
but nobody hears,
and you can't sleep,
mired in thoughts deep,
and all you want
is to be saved
but, darling,
when this calm sea,
won't tell,
rescued,
can you ever be?

And then one fine day,
it ceased to matter,
altogether,
when there was nothing left but oblivion,
disguised as felicity,
dressed as sorrow,
broken at places,
yet hopeful for a new tomorrow,
and they could, but see only one side,
so all they did, was presume the other...

The battle of words,
and one had to lose
another limped his way
to the grave he dug for himself,
and all the others
that survived the war,
screamed and wailed,
and hoped they'd died.

Because there are a million thoughts that never sleep
and a million more that wake up as each second passes by...
And it's insanity inside
but I can no longer keep quiet
Oh, I can't speak as well
I need to write
I have to write...

It's scary how someone can be so sad within
but smile in front of the entire world...

And then they will weep till they choke, 
and then wiping those tears away, 
they will laugh with you as if nothing happened..

How then will you ever trust that person enough to leave them alone??

Stay. Simply stay.

It's strange how people give up on you within weeks of promising that they will always be there..
and it's just sad that promises are destined to break
and when you had finally believed in that one promise
someday you give up on yourself too...
and it's not about love, it was never..
it is, at times, about barren hopes and a bleak tomorrow...

Of all the things you said I couldn't do

forgetting you has been the easiest...

I'd like to lose myself again 
in that cold wintry night..
cozy in my own company
I'd like again to write...
giving in to feelings
with all my might
I'd bleed my heart out
in solitude, to write...

I will love you like the desert burns along the sun when they are together,
and when you will be gone,
just like every one else,
I will cry for you like the snow that melts at the first hint of summer...
and hoping that you'll be back
I will miss you like the clouds lose themselves when it rains...

Do you have a shoulder to cry on?
Someone who would listen to your deepest woes without judging you?
Or is it just you and the image in the mirror?

Exactly when will you give up?

When things will seem out of your hands ?

When situations will seem out of your control?

Will you try to control them? Or will you let go?

Will you give up then? Or will you keep holding on?

Don't tell me that I gave up; I didn't.

Because I didn't let go; I just let it be.

Do you know that pain of leaving when you look back expecting to see a face waving goodbye at you but all you see is a dark abandoned corner?

There won't be any reason to return then.

All you can do is look ahead and not to stumble and fall on the pit ahead waiting for you.

My Brain: Sit and Sulk. Think about all the bad stuffs that ever happened to you.

Me: No way. I'm sleeping.

*Brain gives in*

"Phone rings*

Me: Yes?

He: Hi.

*And he reminds of every bad stuff that ever happened*

*Brain wakes up*

*I give in*

*Another sleepless night*

The moment when you realize no one understands, no one ever did, no one ever will.
You were alone, you always will be.
But may be, just may be, someone will look upto you someday. And when they do, remember to hide those tearful eyes, to smile and to say - "look, life's so good." :-) 

I am an optimist and when I am too sure of something or someone, well, of course it turns out that I am wrong 

.. at other situations, I imagine the worst and needless to say, I am again wrong